Tired of Being Tired!

We are all walking around with those glossy eyes. " I'm tried," we say. We are living multiple lives and having battles within; struggling to get rid of all the pain we have, and yet not wanting the world to know what you're going through. Why? Because we know that explaining the pain is only going to break us all over again; because we are tired, and it's not from the lack of sleep. We are tired of waking up with nothing to look forward to; tired of going to bed exhausted after doing a million things that we find no enjoyment in doing.  We are tired of this void, of this emptiness that looms over us even when we have just so many things to do. We are tires if the loneliness even though we are surrounded by dozens of other people. We all are just tired of being tired, so why can't we just say it?!

Humans are so afraid to look into each other' s eyes and say, "I'm unhappy, I'm broken". We have been conditioned to associate pain with weakness, sadness with coldness, loneliness with unworthiness, and difference with disease, as if these feelings are contagious. As if ambivalence is something not to be felt, but to be feared.

Well, I say screw all that. Screw all the pretending and the fake smiles and the polite hand shakes and "I'm fines". Screw all the fear of crying in a public place. Screw the fake chipper voice, and screw the lies that we spit out to cover up our problems. We are humans and we are meant to feel everything and to feel openly. We are not metal. We are flesh and bones. Our boiled blood courses through our cold, clammy hands. We are intricate and beautiful, and we should never hide what we are inside; because if we do then what is left to show?

Do you ever feel like you aren't even friends with some of your friends?

It is a sad truth when you realize that more than half of the friends that you have don't even mean a thing to you. They're just somebody that you either use for some thing or another. It all just goes down from knowing them like the back of your hand to being complete strangers. Isn't it sad? It's like your whole world just falls down before you. All those walls that once fell down to welcome these people in your life and you heart, just builds itself back up to keep them away from you. Things are just not the same between you and them. And it is not the way how they act or treat you…I guess it's just that you realize that they were not the ones that you needed to be with. It's like you lose all your trust in them and regret every single moment that you spent with them. They are just not worth it anymore. All the feelings that you had for them eventually fade away and they're just somebody that you once knew and never want to know them again.

People who throw around the word "Best Friends"

Just stop for a minute. A best friend is someone who understands you and who is there for you unconditionally. somebody that loves you like no other human being out there. Somebody who will stick with you through all your mistakes. A best friend is most definitely not  a human being who you just approach saying, "WE SHOULD BE BEST FRIENDS!" just for the fun or heck of it, or use the word best friends to get at somebody. You just can't do that. If so...you just gave the word "Best Friends" a bad name. Somebody who will always forgive you, and can make you laugh through your darkest days...now that's a best friend. Not some brod your trying to pick up or get to know. A best friend is somebody you already know, that has your back when everyone turns their backs against you.